All eyes on my wings

Its been almost an era where achievements, promises, dreams, desires to be made true. Of all people there are very few who have believed in me and my abilities. I am a person who has worked hard enough to reach where I stand right now. All the world around me is surely scary but beautiful too. There cannot be an opportunity in visible lights, often dark corners lead to the milestones of success. People have always been expecting me to reach some place where no one has ever reached. I have a flair which these people see which I lack to purview in terms of understanding. No matter what I may do, I lack to see what I have in current situations. Its okay to be like this I hope, since its better this way, I am original and not some mode of development in the name of inspiration. I am carving my own path and will lead it to top at some point of time. My friend Anurag often says, “You have worked hard enough for your share, now its time you get your reward.” First time he made me feel that I deserve something as of now. What am I waiting for is not the question, rather it’s the time I am waiting for an opportunity to arrive. I am just keeping my eye wide open. All my friends, Swapnil, Rahul, Taps, etc have started questioning me as to what do I plan to do in my near future. Why I am not taking the turn to a land where pools of job standby? The question is seriously so difficult to answer for me right now. But definitely, the answer is on its way. I have complete faith that I will be paid for my work, I will be justified in my work. No matter what may stand in my way, the scope of hurdles might be their, but I will cross over those to make my peak of victory. Working hard is what I know I have learned and adopted. I always used to search my date of birth with people of importance in history. Of all, I am so proud I share it with Abraham Lincoln, who survived 31 years of failure and stands tall in the history of world today. I will not give up, I will stand tall. I will make mark in the sands of history.

Something I have cherished my entire life, and wrote it by heart for minds to read and remember always.

“Every wing needs ground for some time, every flight leads sky sometime.”

It’s not my fault

I started my life with dreams right about everyday I have lived ever till now. But all my life, all I have done is just tried. Don’t know as to what capacity have I applied myself to realize that goal but definitely got depressed what others could do about something they wanted for their lives. It’s in my nature I guess to compare myself. When I talk to my friends about it, they know what, how and when they want anything they dream about. All my life I have been just saying, get up and move forward. If I’ve failed in the effort, I would say to myself always “At least you tried, it’s okay that you failed, it’s not your fault.”

Now when I think about whatever I can recollect my entire life about times when I’ve used “Its not your fault Aniruddha! Its okay! Move along.” Here are few that I would like to declare:

1. Class 6th, could not be selected for hockey team at Junior School Level even after practicing with Level 1 team. All I said to myself was “Its okay Aniruddha! Its not your fault”. I quit playing hockey almost the next year.

2. Class 7th, even after due trying and by trying to study self about the same with the N.C.E.R.T. book issued to us by school, when I failed to understand the basic of Chemistry in Mr.Chandrasurya classes, I said to myself  “Its not your fault, move ahead.” I did not give any effort to understand Chemistry, actually started hating it.

3. Class 9th, when I failed to understand the process of Mitosis & Meiosis as to why they happen so, we were explained that it just happens but the why part was not answered, so at the end, I quit liking for Biology. All I said to myself was “Its not your fault. Move ahead!”
4. Class 9th, when I lived at hostel, I was boycotted by my batch several times, lost respect from my friends, even got beating from someone I thought was my best friend just because all this time some jerk amongst us told lie to my rest of friends and they believed it.  I lost faith in friendship and ever since have failed to believe in term what some call, Best buds. I quit making new friends after that and said to myself always “Its okay, its not your fault! Move ahead.”

5. Class 10th, I prepared for some competitive exam for an Institute which took care of preparation for IIT-JEE and I failed. Just because the reason was plain and simple, I did not have enough marks in 9th class to clear the minimum level of benchmark to be able to give the entrance exams. Like a fool after the 10th class board exams, I used to get up 4 am in the morning and study about it. Finally after some time, a letter came, you do not qualify the minimum requirement. I quit the craze towards competitive exams altogether. I said to myself “Its okay, its not your fault! Move ahead!”

6. Class 11th, I wanted to opt Commerce as my subject and study it well. But when I told this to my dad, he wrote a letter which was all emotional which somewhere read that ‘I had destroyed all his dreams.’ As I read it, I remained in Science stream and tore the letter. I had lost all the interest in my career to opt and study something I wanted to study now. All I said to myself was “Its not your fault, its okay! Move ahead.”

7. Class 11th, my father like any father to give me an advantage, got my admission done into Gupta Tutorials. Had the toughest part of my life which literally pulled my brain apart. Full day school followed by 3 hours classroom teachings of IIT-JEE stuff, I was not able to solve any. Made my life miserable. I was down, way down in case of my self-confidence. Had to quit Gupta Tutorials when I had the hardest time passing my exams in 11th. Just managed to pass my exams, but all I felt and said to myself was “Its okay! Its not your fault. Move ahead!”

8. Class 12th, result was abysmal. I was having hardest time understanding something which was called as Science. I could not mug up the derivation. I could not solve the Math problems. Just computer science and English seemed to be my liked ones. My father was sad that I could not live his dream while I was at Daly College so as to once I could get an award in an Annual function. He was sad for sure. All his hopes for me were in vein. I cried that night like anything. All I said to myself was “Its okay! Its not your fault. Move ahead!”

9. As I was short of options, now the race for madness came finally. Race for competitive exams. I did not have the competence to face any. Still, my father always thought of giving me options in life, so I had many competitive exams to face. I knew it already. I did not have the prep for it in any case. I gave them all. Selected in none. Got a call of counseling from MP-PET. I had the option of once and for all to go to Govt. College, Thrissur. But took the bad option of B.D.C.O.E. Sewagram. Went down to college, secured the admission. First day at college, could not understand a word of anything. Got nice beating the first day at hostel. When my dad came to meet me up, told him to take me away from here. I want to try again. He said, “We have paid the money already. If possible, study here itself.” I said to myself, “Its okay! Its not your fault. You will be fine here! Move ahead!”

10. B.E. – final year (2007), failed to clear the basic conditions. Failed in 3rd sem exams. Had to clear those exams in an year time. I had lost the girl I fell in love with. Was totally ruined. Cried, cried and cried. Wanted to end life somehow. But pulled myself together. All I said to myself was “Its okay! Its not your fault! You will be fine. Move ahead!”

11. Masters courses were being searched forth. Was also preparing for GRE from the time of my year discontinued due to that 3rd semester subjects. I asked my dad if he can allow me to give exams. He said, “lookout for something in India itself.” I had the hardest time with my graduation options to find any good university and my jiyaji suggested and I landed up in D.A.V.V. Did my masters, lost my closest friend, love of my life this time from my final year of my B.E. and ended up with good results for once to be good.I said to myself “Its okay! Its not your fault for anything bad happened Aniruddha. Move ahead!”

12. Right now, when I talk to my friends, Anurag, Tapan at times, they feel pity for me, they have best wishes but clear on one grounds, I have no good qualification, no talent at all and don’t know where I shall land up or find any job. Anurag says “The people who are from IIT, NIT’s or good colleges, they have worked hard to make it on top so they are earning well. Dont compare them or tell me that you deserve better chance from what they have got. You haven’t got anything they have.” I know it kills me to hear this but this is true, but again I say always “Its okay! Its not your fault! Move ahead.”

I felt like giving in always in these situations above and yet I have tried my level best to give my 100% effort to make it work, move in positive direction. But the charm is lost somewhere. I don’t know what I want to become. I feel life is same and fair to all, so everyone deserves a chance. I know I will make an excellent career in management. I have faith in myself. I will make it on the top. I know, none of the above can be said to be whose fault it was or where did I go wrong. Seeing things from now would only show the mistakes I or anyone related to me might have made it. But definitely I know for sure, I gave my complete heart and soul to make it work. I have no regrets about a thing in my life. I am proud of what I am right now. I am a person who is brave enough to face my fears with an open eye. The battle have never won by those who lost many times earlier, its only those battles where these people won are known to us. Someday, I would make everyone proud. I would make my family, friends, countrymen proud one day. Failures have been my experiences but definitely not my stands or life. I have succeeded in stepping over those and move ahead. May be, that’s my strength. I am a positive person. I know I loose confidence over myself from time to time, I fear the competition but I have been facing them all my life and face them in future. I will win them sometime, because I am making efforts. Thats what matters and rest is just speculations of everyone. It does not matter to me what my friend think of me but its my life and I will make the best of it. I dont care what people think about it. I will go down in the books of history for something at least. Adios!

India’s Talent Hunt: Hunt for truth first people

Talent Hunt show or another Hunch of Publicity. Its hard to put thoughts together. So many beautiful shows and artists are hunted in times like these. But where do they all end up after wonderful performances, choice made by public for that particular wonder child or wonder singer.

Its democracy we have India. I love to practice my fundamental right to express anything I want. But does that mean I am entitled to say anything about anyone in India. Certainly not, I have to be responsible enough to be able to practice my fundamental rights. Certainly in India, democracy has been so mislead in today times. A child or a singer in these talent hunt shows is made to work hard, sing songs which originally has been sung by many re-takes in a studio. The person makes so much effort to achieve something which is either a lie or out of sight and out of mind case study. If these shows are just revenue earning building blocks created by so called Corporate Sponsors. The last singer I remember who was truly elected and given a chance to sing was Ms. Shreya Ghoshal. No one in India would question her ability to sing so beautifully as I feel she at times is a Mozart in disguise. But the basic view I like to put up here is, if she is a great singer, she faced a challenging competition, she came up on top, she lead her voice to become a star performer. That was some original work. But how about now? Where is singer Anwesha (Star VoI Chote Ustad), Aishwarya and I can go on naming these wonderful artists to be precise. The certainly performed so well. Where are these kids now? Where has the sanctity of these so called judges gone now? For a song, how hard is it to let a wonderful artist like this be given a chance. I would definitely like to appreciate Adesh Shrivastava, how was kind as well as brave enough to give chance to a singer from such competition. Its a brilliant journey they go through with stress and strain, loss of academics, just to live what they think they can, what they dreamed but just could not taste it right away.

I feel its the lack of awareness in citizens of my nation, who do not understand the set up behind such shows, its rather 80% marketing of sponsors and 20% promoting the singer which rather is a center stage entity.

When will the nation rise and wake up from what they have been living is a lie, a memory which they off and on forget, but the worse part is, if we have forgot someone, a time will come where we also will be history. Appreciate the person, write, print, e-mail it and let these immoral people know, that we are aware. We cannot be fooled out here. If art needs to be promoted, its only possible if we remember that artist exists. I would proudly say – “I PROTEST!”

I would like to let know the people what Rabindra Nath Tagore had once written:

WHERE the mind is without fear and the head is held high

Where knowledge is free

Where the world has not been broken up into fragments

By narrow domestic walls

Where words come out from the depth of truth

Where tireless striving stretches its arms towards perfection

Where the clear stream of reason has not lost its way

Into the dreary desert sand of dead habit

Where the mind is led forward by thee

Into ever-widening thought and action

Into that heaven of freedom, my Father, let my country awake.

Change of days!

First of all, this is one of the most beautiful days that I want to store or update in some section of my life, may be years from now, someone related to me might read it and understand what I felt at this point of time.

Its always special for anyone to turn 25 years old. So here I am, celebrating and connoting the way life has changed my days and of course, A Very Happy Birthday to me! Cheers!

Gone have the days, when this day used to fill my heart with joy and excitement, cakes, parties (of that of typical engineering life), dancing to the beat even when I know I am a lousy dancer, all have gone. The people who used to surround me to this day have departed and I’ve been forgotten. This act of life was so special to me that I feel this time has turned into an empty tunnel for me, to walk alone. Their will be days when new people will stand beside me, but I am a person who lives in past a lot. My scrapbook on social community websites where my accounts stand used to flood with messages, my calls were always on hold since the people used tried to be first to wish me. Still, its hard to stand this way.

As of now, I am alone in my room with around 6 calls of people I know and have wished me the very best of this day and I thank them, to my soul. I miss being in love with someone at this point of time, this time, their was this person in my life who used to wait for my calls after every cake has been finished off to base, cakes have been blown, dance have been tried to loose the grounds. People have been on high and then began the final call. For 10 mins may be, I used to talk to her, but it brought peace to my heart. No doubts, I am no more in love with that person but yeah, I miss being in that feeling, its the feeling I miss the most and not person which is to be believed.

Neither am I good with words, neither with the part of expression. Its a phase which I had imagined so hard, celebrated in my thoughts so many times. But certainly my family is beside me, my sisters have been married, I am alone and waiting for just one wish, I should be able to sleep. The thought of being alone scares me and is haunting me. But I will do well. Life is all about celebrating and certainly, I do celebrate the efforts I had put forward from my last birthday are rewarding.

I miss you my friends, family & love that I miss the most.

Happy Birthday to me!

Cheers!

Tribute to Old Classics of West!

It’s certainly a matter of fact that old classic soap, music, movies were too good at par with what we see today in modern times.

Be it a dream come true, but who in this world would not like to see Barbara

I dream of Jeannie (Always the one!)

Eden as a Jeannie in “I dream of Jeannie”. The entire cast and crew were marvelous and brilliant. How can someone forget charm of Barbara Eden in pink dress of her, Major Nelson in his blue outfit full of energy and dedication, Dr. Bellows always out in search to understand his favorite subject, Major Anthony Nelson or Major Healey trying to get away with his girls or I should say his so-called love for any girl whom he could just get married. The jealousy of Jeannie to fight what may come to marry his only love of life in thousands of years, Major Anthony Nelson. The entire cast and crew can be voted as one of the best possible soap which has written all the history with the fact that their was class, nothing sexy and yet so attractive, to what some might be able to quote, priceless! I am so smitten by this series that even if once I could meet Ms. Barbara Eden, I would say to her, what a beautiful and adorable lady are few of lowest grades of words for her.

If next may come, I would vote for none other than Ms. Elizabeth Montgomery at equal par, rather to share equal positions with I dream of Jeannie. It was amazing to see how Samantha has “Bewitched” the life of Mr.Darrin Stevens to become and transform into Mrs.Darrin Stevens.

Be-Witched!

An every day American girl to lover to a wife. I wish, I could see her in her lifetime but was not able to see one. The way Dick York showed his classic all worked up hair and also the way his following one picked up the character of Mr.Darrin Stevens. The confidence of Larry Tate & Lewis Tate in the Stevens couple.  The trying to be cunning neighbor and her husband who never trusted her. It was simply the most beautiful series which delivered what just can be another classic.

I would certainly recommend people, watch them all. See the work they did, which in today’s times is not possible. How can someone think so beautiful thoughts in the form of scripts.

Its the simplicity that charms the most, not the dazzling lifestyle. I wish if this could be understood by film makers, series makers in India. It was the limits of their times which directed to make such an amazing journey. In times of today, its the limitless exposure to everything, without realizing the effects of which we are thrown and exposed to thought-traffic and polluted which surely wastes time, technology and money.

I pay my tribute to these stars of which many have passed away and may their souls rest in peace. May Ms. Elizabeth Montgomery rest in peace. God bless them heaven for the entertainment of lifetime they gave to common people like us.

Never give up..

Its been so difficult finding self in some shoe which were not made for you.

That’s right, I am talking about the stage of my life, where I am trying to find a job, its so hard to find a job these days. I know, some days are fun, some are so hard that make me cry at nights, some are motivating. Days have been flying by, I hold a degree where I have no whereabouts as to what are its capability. If someone asks me, what can you do with this degree that you hold onto, I have no answer.

People work their entire lives, they know exactly where they would end up. I have a friend, whom I know is really amongst the best friends that I cherish till date. He has been my friend for almost a decade now.

We were having a discussion regarding the Management Consultancy companies who give chances to only IIT/IIM graduates. This is a point we both agreed to, they have worked hard to be in that category and honestly I respect it a lot. I was suggesting that it should be declared directly if IIT/IIM student is a requirement and criterion of selection as in our country its the college you study matters and not what you know about what you have studied. As said in 3 idiots movie, “Grade creates divide, it feels like a caste system.”  These management consultancy companies want best employee and which is fair, but the screening process is easy, 1 job, 1500+ applicants, look out for IIT/IIM graduates, then graduates from NITs and then if required go through the rest lot of crap (where I stand today). If screening of application, which is just a meager representation of someone on a piece of paper being estimated that, yes the candidate is a perfect fit and if the screening process calls for such a class, it should be declared and thus allowed in India I hope. I don’t discriminate the people at IIM/IIT. I have friends who are from such institutions and they are brilliant. Its the companies whom I feel people like me are at war. I just wish, I can get a job and the day I have to hire someone, I shall change the hiring process, anyone who has the potential, be it from a simple university or college but talented should be offered a chance to prove himself/herself.

Competition is not over because, one thing is for sure. Greatest thoughts and inventions has come from someone unknown in beginning of their times.

Greatness is a result of spark of motivation and not bulk of education.

At end I know, many have given up on me, the hope to qualify me as successful but yes, I have one, a hope to shine for, a hope that I will come out successful out of this shell, brightest star that shines, initially has to come in existence. I am in existence, I am alive, I am fighting and this struggle would not go in vain.

When no one is their to motivate you, get up, smile and say to self, “It is going to be fine, I am doing great till now.”

In the end, today at 24 January 2010, at 3:31 am, I sign off to move into a sleep where dreams have no limit.

Mob Media & Memory

India is a beautiful country with a strong integrity which when challenged is ready to fight for on need.

When someone spits in a public place, its overlooked but when the same is on our clothes or at walls of our home, it’s questioned and fought over. It’s not the love for country that people look up; it’s within their own self. People cannot question safety, sense of responsibility, awareness be made when not practiced in general sense by themselves. I firmly believe that good things begin with self first, if one cares for own home, property. Does that not mean that it should be taken to next level saving public properties and roads because it is what we have been paying for to the government in the form of TAXES which might have been summed up to more than you might have saved if calculated from the times of our people earlier in our family.

1. What about times when India is cool, calm and quiet the vigilance of people and love for country is absent?

1. Absence of Media (News channels, Papers, Reports, Polls, Radio, etc.) for something which is bad and yet not answered to people?

1. What is definition of beautiful country?

It’s the responsibility of Media to generate a Memory for anyone who does patriotic work even of small scale in order to give them recognition, to make them a part of Mob and yet let them be popular amongst Mob, rather than making them fade with time.

Infact, it’s the Mob that makes difference between popular, to some not needed and forget very easily who are needed the most.

It’s the memory of people that matters here. How many people remember Police Inspector Mohan Chand Sharma who died battling terrorist in Delhi? How many people are thankful to that very person who fought for country without any greed or demand, just with a sense of responsibility so that citizen of India could sleep without fear because he was guarding the security. Money can never get him back to his family, but it should have been impeccable respect of everyone. Martyrs are never give their life for a city, state or country but for all the world. Something which every country should think about, rather than making political issue and earning money in the terms of TRP. Heroes are not of nation, they are for every one who claims to be a human and not a terrorist.

The list goes endless, what about martyrs in Mumbai attacks?

Major Sandeep Unnikrishna, NSG commandos and Anti-Terrorism Squad (ATS) Chief Hemant Karkare were few of martyrs that I would never like to forget. I would keep adding to the list of people who were either victims or fought with a brave heart. To face terrorism and yet not to give up, to fight is a trait of a hero. Heroes are not born by birth, they are amongst us and we need to encourage and take part in every possible way to not let the Mob forget about who are real heroes and not just the ones who take up all the screen just because being painted in silver. It’s the fake that tries to shine more but does not have worth rather than original which is humble and remains calm.

Just demonstrating anger in media is not a solution for the citizen. Waiving hands on screen is not a way either to fight terrorism. Take up the responsibility to bring anyone or everyone to task who does anti-social work. Be it throwing paper bits on roads, neither one should fear picking one and dropping it in trash can. Charity begins at home, memory begins with our self, repeated discussions and till the time that people stop talking about terrorist and talk more about martyrs.

Country needs progress but it comes from its people and not from some external source. This realization has to be made in Memory of Mob and which can be achieved by Media by repetitive discussions to make public aware.

If this has been a worth of script that I have posted, the question of “What is definition of beautiful country?” should be answered by all of us. If possible, please post a copy of your stand here as a comment so others can understand the sentiments.

Absolute State of Completeness

Want, Need, Requirement is the beginning phase where you feel that you lack for some or the other thing. For some, it may be anything in this world. Love, money, position, power, sex, ability to express self, or just being self at times. I have been through all of them some or the other times so I would like to share my point of view regarding the same.

During the college years, the factor of ‘love’ was so important for me. Certainly, things evolved, I was in love with someone for the first time. Joy for some time and fights for the rest of time. Thus, the resultant was that I broke up with her. When I had attained the place where I knew how it felt to be in love with someone. To care for someone, to fight and what not, it was special. The person may not be as special as the feeling with which one carries the thought of being in love. It’s just that you feel certainly that you are complete in a way as you know now, what was love for you. Certainly, one feels casual for former times but the same feeling comes up for later with different person. The point I am trying to put up here is, when once attained the want, need or requirement in some people’s case I should say the greed to attain all this turns off. It all over and thus, in this state one can feel the state of completeness on those grounds.

When it came to money, I am still a student under this section. Its human nature, the more you attain wealth, the more you spend or try to spend it and the cycle to acquire more begins without any break. In fact, the most vicious circle of life is earning and spending at all times. Here, the need or requirement is ever growing. You can never be satisfied with what you have at the moment. If some people say, they are satisfied with what they have, they are flawlessly lying about the fact that they too enjoy monetary transactions to buy something or the other, or in simple words, want or need is to be satisfied. If people are satisfied then why not take and give anything they can for free? Lol.

Let us take up an example from my life. Whenever I used to see people with better position and power, I used to come up to my father and ask him as to why we don’t have the power as others. In other words, the money factor was the basic part but my father never answered the question. On his defense I should say, the part where he began and where he is now are totally different. For him, the position he wanted to acquire has been set, the need factor was over. Unfortunately, I was born at this time so for me, this was a start and certainly, the I was not satisfied on this bargained portion which existed in front of me. Still, my father did a fantastic job because he did it with honesty and not one wrong means, which is true. It’s never the part where he was wrong, for him the need condition was satisfied but for me, life had began to unravel. I would not lie on this part but I would not cross any lines to achieve success. I chose to study hard and make high stakes of position and power just a by-product. It is definite that completeness or sense of attainment of everything gives life a factor to smile and be proud. Be it soon, I want to cherish that feeling in no time. It’s a war and we have to fight for bread and butter. Not aiming too high but I aim not for bread and butter, sex, love but a sense of attainment which is absolute and real. The cost shall be only smart hard work. The point I am putting here is what is factor that we aim to survive is only need and complete attainment of anything and everything, just some people choose wrong means to achieve it.

I was reading the other day that some industrialist has achieved everything and he does not desire for more. Again, total disagreement here. If achieved everything and does not desire anything, its self actualization stage. I believe that Mr. X should rather go for meditation on Himalayas or rather just not claim to do so. If one cherishes the luxury, success, cars, pen, clothes, etc. the person can never claim to be having that stage of life.

Maslow theory in management has a very exclusive point to put up in such a case.

Maslow Pyramid

Needs and their priority. I believe once in a while one should evaluate their goals in lives with respect to this pyramid. It says a lot, because if this pyramid is not complete so is not the cycle of life. I have only put up this picture for self understanding. I am no teacher, its just that I am arguing what I have heard from people arguing over bus stops, railway station, airports, hotels, etc. Its so crucial to understand the right meaning behind the word need which is the only key to our success. I have my co-ordinates evaluated. What about rest is with their own. Still, one word of caution. Everything is dependent on time. One can run quick this span by hard work but escaping or fear is not an option.

For some, religion is inculcated as a factor which needs to satisfied on the grounds of equality. Wrong motivation here leads these people to do what we quote as terrorist. Thus, we can also argue over the point that no human can reach god or self actualization.

Letter to God: Reference to Economics

Hello god. How are you? I hope this letter finds you best of your health and wealth. Needed to discuss a lot so thought to write you a letter.

So tell me how is everything at your end? Is all under control? Heard about the panic deaths in earth so thought, must be caos at your place too. There is no need to tell you the reason, you play it all just by one button, Economies.

What about equity market in heaven and hell? Does market pay off well for sweets and all amenities that you have given to mankind that you do not cherish. What about absence of life around you that you give to face difficult times, life full of fears for loosing home, friends and family. You controlled all very well by the means of monetary terms of all the countries and continents.

Here my friends have ended up with clothes of special brand Z to wear around, nice purse of company X, watch so beautiful of compnay U. Here is the twist, all the companies ‘Z’ Ltd., ‘X Ltd.’, ‘U’ Ltd. have run away from the market because of the strategy laid by human race in corporate style of crime in legal ways is, take money, invest it, if not possible to distribute profit, have fun, some holidays, some interviews and at the end of day, pack it up, wrap it up, release more equity which also fails when it arrives into market as the selling price offered by companies is much costlier than available in market. Loser!

Its a vicious cycle god, you only need to pull one plug and world swings till end of days. Economy.

If war is declared between two countries,

………      Slow down (global news)/(Declared)

.

f (Economy) =   .

………   Death of common man (local news)/(Hidden)

Thus, when f (Economy) = Slow Down = Death of Common Man = Profit in market of God’s Heaven and Hell.

The inflow in such case is so much that liquidity in god’s market is ample and thus, allows some years of growth again and uses that liquidity to invest in business like Investment in lives of terrorist (this is how those bastards live long) and disinvestment in life span of common man (this is how common and good people are gone).

God, I would like to request you to please device a policy for Ministers in power who easily quote as “Everything is under control” whereas the damage to common man is exponential. Coming to the point god, the policy that should be made is, if profit in your market, then authorities of such offices should be turned into beggar and other punishments alongwith proprietors of companies who play with people money with no brains rather than just living in luxury delux sweet toilets, whereas the common man finds difficulty in finding a public restroom.

How about a divident of such people to live life of that very poor man on earth who finds difficulty in living on street who is fed by common man extra food at home, not by the rich but by people who is common and average on pay scale. If they won’t earn, how can major population live with ease.

Its unfair system that has been developed but certainly needs to be amended and be applicable in different sense which I shall explain in my second letter to you.

Meanwhile, God, give my regards to other good people around.

Letter to god:2

Hello God,

How are things at your end?

Today the equity market seems to settle somehow but the foreign investments that have been increased have given a small hope to investors looking for a rally but so lame is the concept. Once, for foreign investments reductions are made but at the same day you fool them all by turning the international market against it and dipping so down that they really have to take their dimes out of my country and again, the reduction is of no good use.

If one notes down all the trends in here, its for certain that this can be understood as a sign of your genius work by not allowing foreign markets to grow. See, again, very smartly you played it all by one tool of yours: Economics.

God, I would like to ask you if you can provide me some tutorials to these problems as friends of mine who are pursuing Masters of Business Administration are really having a tough time to find a job that might pay off their bills. Come on, stop being so mean god. Markets need to improve and thus, process of re-engineering has taken a while and needs to stop.

Again, not ending on a very good note because tomorrow you have organized my college for the second semester. Really, not feeling good today god. Hope you have a nice time.

Regards

Letter to God: Reference to Satyam

Dear God,

How are you? Seems that you were not happy that mankind was living and trying to earn bread and butter with hard work and dedication. Again, you managed to kill it all by your smart tool: Economy but your weapon for mass destruction was Satyam Computer Services.

Some good news for you god, you finally played your trump card in the beginning of year when everyone was hoping for a head start, you accidentaly gave us a fatal start with catastrophe as a bonus with the stocks of trouble we possessed, soon would be learned all over earth.

Never mind, your player (Ramalinga Raju, Ex-Chairman and Founder of Satyam Computer Services)

B. Ramalinga Raju

has been out and he will is all set to be rewarded by you as he might have declared all his scandal money to his beloved ones and thus, it hardly matters if he faces trial for any number of years. I did tell you about certain measure in my first letter which needs re-assurance regarding the same.

See how beautifully the assets and debtors were created in order to fool the investor and no one had a clue as to what they were paying for, was it his Air Conditioned home, his home or for the welfare of other people as a business. Still, lots of questions need to be answered. Its a sad part that again, in your market you shall find people again in some volumes, try to avoid such traffic.

Again, you played it with one card, so beautifully, your golden tool, economics.

Take care and just have a nice time and give my regards to good people around you.

Regards

Old script, new mildstone

Bits of break-up!!

It has been a typical phenomenon where, I have been practicing my art of break-up ever since I think I started dating. Thought to resolve this issue and put it up for people to read the way I feel about it. This time, it was another girl, yet another person I thought whom I believed to be the one. May be this is it, but it never happens as one expects it to be in life.

Coming down to business, it all happened that I loved this girl very much. To the extent, that I knew what she is capable of, as well as she is thinking, her likes, dislikes, her comfort zones, areas that did bring about fights. Literally saying, everything, still it was a very smooth and balanced and natural relationship which I do respect at least till the moment I am writing about it.

During 2 years of my relationship with her, it was a long-distance, meaningful and full of understanding which we shared beautifully. Initially, she did respect what some refer as commitment, honesty, love, care I had for her, till the point where she was crazy about me. Suddenly, things started changing after date of anniversary. She did get attracted towards a guy, which somehow ended up kissing while she was with me into a relationship, which she revealed, we fought, resolved, took it in a mature manner and moved on.

Now, things during the time had not been so comfortable to which added some spices by my lies about some illness which I had, to a serious level, which did not exist. Later, I did convey her also the same. She was modest enough to say that it was a genuine mistake, and she did forgive me for that as I had also forgiven her for cheating on me. Now, the days went by and we started fighting a lot, still I did manage to get her back. She was very beautiful (infact one of the most beautiful girl I have ever dated) and smart person. She had some part which I overlooked always, like she had an eagerness to see a guy as smart as Indian Cinema Celebrity in concerns for looks, which honestly, i do not possess as I am just above average segment in the scale of looks.

One fine day, while we were talking, I asked her, since their was a significant age difference, I asked her if she is ready for the part to get married say in some five years. To which she exclaimed and denied as she had some professional choices over me. I asked her to talk to her best friend (which a guy should never do, trust me never do it) and discuss out the issue. What a trash notion that one was, wasn’t it? Her best friend made her  flip out, convinced her that she did not love me anymore. When a girl starts saying that she has some best friend other than the guy she is dating, trust me, things are set to fall apart now. In my case, her friend was Surbhi, her best friend.

She told me the same, after some 2 days about what all she thought through very clearly, and she was clear that she did not love me. I was bumped really bad. Someone whom you have loved for so long, is retorting back with an answer you never expected. All the commitments of loving you forever seems to be a myth now. I asked her sometime, what about the promise of Love you forever, would be with you forever! To this she explained me that, it all was valid when she was into a relationship with me. Tell me about it, women need to be questioned really very well about such issues. Ah! I have an idea for this, next time I date any person, your definition of promises for life in terms of life of relationship, or life span of yourself?

Next I asked her, What about your feelings for me? She said, I cannot feel anything for you. Wait a second, does this not feel familiar to a guy. When a guy does not feel anything for any girl, a girl in profound ways, explains about the importance for true love in her life. You can pack your bags and go on a picnic and still, the definition would reach its introduction. What I mean to say is, girls have a very clear defined and refreshed definition of love with respect to time. What a dynamic personality a girl can be is just left to our imagination.

When a guy does not give importance to a girl and keeps his feelings in terms of senses which girl say as cheap and I refer as something which can smelled, felt or tasted is called as being felt. This in terms of girls is referred as, guy just want to get laid and have fun. Now, since, I was not involved in this case, as in actual sense, I had barely kissed her. For her, feelings was a top priority. Had I been feeling her like a normal guy, I would have remained calm even when she might have said, I don’t feel anything for you. At least, like normal guys, I might have got my part of feeling satisfied. Still, I did not regret this, as I had even golden thought within me alive.

SHE CAN BE BACK, I WILL BRING HER BACK. Even now this another part of story that I feel is something every guy thinks is possible, because, at least I will have someone to love, rather than going back to no one. Its something which guys should carefully analyze and think very clearly. If she ever wanted to be pleased back, nurtured or was tempted by your true love then she would not have walked that line, but they do. Smile people, girls do walk this line. They leave and in decisive manner leave for good. Of all people you would consider the part where you would try to call, where your calls wont be returned, your messages wont be replied, still you would quote, Oh! She is sensing what I am trying to say. She is totally coming back. Now, the part of loosing dignity comes down here. A girl who never understood what a person who does not expect anything in return, is waiting, hurting himself for her and still, she manages to enjoy herself, find interest in different people. Can this be the one we dreamed off? I don’t think much in parallel about this.

True love is a myth to the time being conclusion that I feel about. May be, some good girls are out their and which need to be treated like one treatment I was giving above. No doubt about that. But bits of happiness is much less in comparison to chunks of sadness they give. A person who is evil enough to break promises, deny help, who lives for gifts to which they say, we did not ask for it, its you who gave it to me. Come on, this has nothing to with gifts when a guy talks about the gifts he gave, its about the feeling which he gave and which has been renounced.

If a girl can look for love in other person when a person who loved her is standing in front of her, making him transparent to her vision, then no guy can ever complete these kind of girls. They have their ends with break-up situations even worse than this, which is their destiny. Beauty is not everything but its everything for some. People say, money is not everything, it does not make you happy. But, some means to happiness are opened up by the means of money only. Never love a girl who has interest in what you give to her. Look for a girl, who even on bad behavior loves you, nurtures you and then you can stand up and marry her someday and further more show her the love she dreamed off. Till then, I am signing off with my break up # 7.

Adios!

Myth vs. Existence

Its a very descriptive and never ending war within me with these terms as far as I know about it. It has always been this way, one cannot take both ends to stand. They are like banks of river which drift time and again.

For me, whenever I handle a break up, good people turn out to myth, but again when I am with someone I might feel good for, I believe love exists. Something is wrong as I always believe, for ages, Myths have covered up all the black and bad emotions within it. Whereas existence turns out to be that ray of light which helps us keep alive.

Success without hard work is a myth, whereas failure is persistent always and yet in existence. Positive thoughts for pessimistic people is a myth but yet in existence. I always try to come out from my black spots in life by quoting it as a myth, believing in better as well best to arrive if I strive from it. Bad times never last forever, good time has its value because of bad time. If in life, anyone faces a downfall, dont shirk from what has happened, stand still, learn what happened, walk again with learning as a precaution. Good times are again to follow us, it can last forever if we learn from past mistakes.

Thus, I hope I help someone to come out of his/her depression. To be positive, one has to believe, it exists. Happiness is always a factor of belief.

Adios!

Rush of feelings

Its middle of night and I thought to record my feelings which are rushing back for the love that went away with sands of time. I always felt it hard whenever I would think about the time when I was happy and never recorded these times. I always lived it alone and it would be this way always. If you dont share your happiness, the sense of pain is also difficult to share it with people. I wish if could have recorded all my happy memories but they are all in vain now, still the happiness apart from love can be in existence. I dont find that it can be that hard to record, an outing with friends, chatting to a girl whom you dont know and felt that you could have done something for things to happen. Its a state of utter confusion where I dont know why the feelings keep coming back to me. I know, the sense of realization is intact and very deeply rooted for the fact that its over, no hopes should be made. One night when I was talking to one of my friend, he told me a very simple concept which I never used to follow. He said, ” Love someone like you never loved but only till time you are with them, even if the person on genuine prompts, communication of emotions and thoughts fails to understand the path which a partner feels as insecurity for the other one is absent in girls.” Girls dont take time to move on, they are shrewd, carefree and its just us boys who face the difficulty to cope up with life. I clearly understand that their is no point in brooding over the past and specially for a girl who never could understand the fact more than the fact, you loved her, nurtured her and lived for her just to see her smile. To hold her even when she isn’t around but still, every person is independent to their own choices. If the person is not with me, I have no right to think to harm the person which I thought would help me but surely this has been a clear message that even if life turns me towards that very person, she would never be accepted at all.

Choices are just a fact for the rational and not for the people who are bound to emotions. Change has to be incorporated and realized till point of time that person hurt would be set free and would set out strike out a balance between success and happiness.

Cheers to people who think that true love exists, I say it exists but in direction never identified.

Adios!

Obama’s Management: Question or answer

If I remember correctly, President Barack Obama was the person who brought smile to everyone once he was elected and sworn in as President of United States of America.

Sincerely it was a management practice that he adopted and justified his decision of barring outsourcing of work from organization in U.S.A., with a very justified statement that “I am the President of U.S.A. and its my job to deliver food, shelter, protection and a job to my citizens at home.” Indeed that is his job in present scenario but it’s rather questionable.

He has hard time feeding people in U.S.A. but he can definitely part out investments to countries like Pakistan for non-military funds but is he not entitled to supply this amount first at home. That amount could certainly have been used to bring about an industry at present which can be run by American citizens right from home which government can take up and supply it out at a minimum profit margin rate in International market which does provide revenue to country as well as employment to earn bread and butter. Now its to people who should be quantifying it as good investment or bad investment. Certainly, U.S.A. has always shown a strong leadership quality but certainly this was no leadership quality decision rather an investment which cannot be used out or a loan which cannot be retained back for a long duration of time. President Obama is certainly the most generous person that one can look up to in International Politics, who brought in light that color is not matter of discrimination in U.S.A. Why did not he comment upon the racist act traversing across Australia while Indian were being attacked all over. Leadership quality certainly brings about a strong management on its own.

Countries where a strong management resides, where job is a priority and if strategic choice is to be made, it should be with investment to bring about small scale industries which can be integrated to a large scale industry with a legitimate payoff. Articles like clothes, furniture, basic electronic items such as a torch, etc. can be assembled right at home and do not require an expert performing it for anyone. All government needs to develop is a feasible supply chain where resources can be collected from people of small scale such as farmers, small scale production of diodes, etc. who can be their suppliers whereas, people who were hired as truck drivers for transportation industry which again can be brought in completely by government investments creating jobs again and be delivered by the help of police supervision and be collected and sold out to international market. This business can be implemented in few of states and the profit earned from it can be reverted back to investments for other states. At least, this can provide more efficient employment in case of U.S.A. Whereas, to gain capital, government can put up some 10-20% stock of company holding as public issues in international market in countries like India where market is upcoming one and since it would be government owned subsidy so it can be trusted as well. No doubt, some regulatory procedures might take time but that can earn better payoff then any other investment like demonstration of leadership quality for some country which has been recorded for highest destructive and militant attacks and support. No doubt, by creating jobs in U.S. Obama can help out people of Pakistan who can send back some money back their homes. Simple application of low investment could have yielded so much to U.S.A. but no doubt, simple things are difficult to comprehend for experts which U.S. has always supported.

When would i find a job ??

After a due period of search time (4 months and 27 days) I thought it would be wise for me to find the reason what all steps I have tried and could not find a job that would get my career started. Honestly, I have done my engineering from an average institute and masters in a great interdisciplinary discipline i.e. Systems Management. Anyways, I am here not to discuss about the degrees that I have earned. Lets see what all ways I have tried for a job off campus.

1. Direct advertisement approach.
2. Human Resource/ Consultant approach.
3. Employee referral approach.

I don’t know if that was the correct approach but it is important that I should have been much prepared even more to anticipate the questions that were put up to me by the various designations of people who were interviewing me for it. Namely they were:

1. Managing Director
2. Chief Executive Officer
3. Human Resource Department Officer

Obviously, they were they people whom we don’t expect to interview a fresher but yeah I did get a chance to do it. I did prepare all about the following:

1. Job Description – Things I was suppose to know for sure
2. Company Details – Things I should know about the company and also the designation which shall come under the department and product I might possibly serve
3. Subject expertise regarding my major project at Masters.

After so many interviews, I was getting perfect at the art of the interview process and definitely I was prepared to clear any Aptitude Test and H.R. part of interview. I gave my best shot at it. Definitely, I was the best one at the end of fifth interview. The waiting period for the response for an interview has always been indefinite to me. But things in such process do take time (from 1 week to 3 weeks). Definitely its hard to hold on to nerves for a job you like or the desperation one develops when searching for a job. But the trick here is only patience that one needs to preach and practice. After even doing some masters I was looking forward to only an Entry Level position so that I can build a solid foundation.

I believe I did more than perfect to all plausible methods and combinations to attain a job. But it is definite that I have found this process to be even more difficult to achieve a job in cities like Mumbai, Pune. It is never the same but definitely that one has to undergo this learning and keep looking up high that one day the words we are looking forward would be heard finally by us “You’re hired!”

Would keep you posted if the search methods have been successful for me since I am also waiting for results as of now. Good luck if this post has been helpful for anyone.

Indian Cinema Re-discovered

It was really awesome experience after years, I was thrilled again to see one of the most ingenious movies in years. No movie engrossed me of that in Indian Cinema which took me by surprise, “Detective Naani”.

The movie is really a brilliant piece of work. The movie connects so easily. The pace of story is engrossing one. It was balanced with light doses at all times where they were in right limits and yet made the presence felt. Its so hard to keep it just as a comedy flick, its overall package, adventure, comedy, action, suspense for a while may, I am just out of words.

Mostly movies that I’ve noticed failed flat in-spite of mega cast because, either they failed in their story line, their humor was over done, the action was so superficial which was hard to believe, or lets say the romance has gone off the hooks turning into a lot of skin show of glamorous heroine which seems so difficult to be adopted in real life (LOL). Honestly, this movie should be shown at every acting academy, to every aspiring writer, director, actor and I would like to congratulate the crew and cast of “Naani Detective”, I felt sad as to why didn’t I watch this movie in cinema hall.

Mrs. Ava Mukherjee was brilliant and so were Amrita Raichand, Simran Singh, Shweta Gulati & Ankur Nayyar.

Please watch this movie once and watch it without the mega cast prejudice. It is a well deserved movie. 10/10 experience for me. Thanks Doordarshan for this one.

Embarking a new milestone, continuing journey

Its a new journey, where I am on my own. Education world is taking a break, I hope that now I stand on my own. I strongly believe on a thought that I wrote for myself:

“Every wing needs ground for some time, every flight leads sky sometime.” (Aniruddha Acharya)

Definitely I’ve been on ground for a long time, now I have to lead to skies this time. Its time that I learn to fly in the vast space around me. Whenever we are about to embark on a new journey, their is anxiety that I feel within, definitely this will subside in no time. People spend their entire life to find the one trait, one quality, which makes them different from others. People have names which are recognized so easily, its simple to remember them. Who in India would not understand Amitabh Bachchan ji? I want my name to be in skies of the world and I know, its time that I begin this journey.

I have seen people complaining, scaring others (of whom I have been one) about the challenge that one might face while working. Being on your own, pressure from peers, work satisfaction, fear of pink slips and what not. During the period of recession, I’ve seen people fighting to keep up with their jobs. It was mostly the private sector guys who were harassed, slaughtered in the catastrophy.

Its a new world here with a brand new start. I will work my way up. I dont know if I have it in me, I dont know if I will be able to finish strong. I will start strong, stay strong, no matter what may come. Its my creativity, my world where I will be stepping out. I have it all in me now. Lets give this wing a flight now.

“Fear and failure are correlated but they are dynamic, never stationary.”

I will do what I can, its a phase and I will live it up. I’ve fell lot of times where people have taken a lead, but I have learnt to cross these hurdles which others have not seen yet, people are in lead, but the race has just begun. Lets finish it strong.

Directed us, misguided life!

It just happened to be that I went by to watch movie with my friend Anurag today. It was Wake Up Sid. Certainly, like every normal Indian I felt symmetry in situation in some ways and yet moved by heart. Every young person goes through this stage and I am lucky one to pass the stage where we look for an aim, which we are be-fitting and perfect match. I know it sounds crazy but what I have passed by earlier, roaming like a stone who gathers no moss. Just managed to clear my engineering career. Always wanted to make a mark, do something groundbreaking and yet believe to come out with flying colors.

Success is counted sweetest amongst those who have never been one of the kind.  I never brought any accolade for my father who got my education through one of the best public schools in India. I knew that he never said anything but yet I could always read it in his eyes. Everytime he came to one of those functions, he had a hope that someday I would bring him the honor of being a parent of kid who got award in his Annual Prize Giving ceremony. He never said, but I always heard about it. When I could not make it to some premier institution, he just helped to get through one of such institution which was available. It was not the best and I took it the way I should have taken it. Further when I completed my engineering in 5 years time which is a 4 year programme. I swore to myself that I would not let it happen anymore, I came to my masters and finally had become amongst my college toppers. It was an achievement for my father. He was so happy that finally I recognized my inner way and made the way out. My first taste of success was magical. The smile on his face was my reward which I had wanted for years altogether.

Next phase that I have before me is that of getting some job,  doing something which earns me a recognition. I don’t know where my course is applicable. It’s a human tendency to be scared of something he/she does not like or find it difficult to attempt. I know, I am not meant to do some I.T. project but to have a way of my own. I have always been interested how my father has worked. He is an excellent administrator and I know, if I am successful enough he will have a company where he can be a C.E.O. I have dreams, but no way out how to get their. People say, you figure out once you get into it. I never have been able to understand this part. Making a mistake of own is more important and to learn from it. If you want to earn bread and butter, learn new stuff, one must get a job but if you want a lavish life, you need to run a smart business, something groundbreaking. To open up a big company is something which people say requires experience, but I know what are my flairs. I know my area of strengths. My friend Anurag is an excellent developer, he knows what he has to develop and he has the approach. He did motivate me so many times to learn something in software and languages but I cannot see myself working on such a stuff. I have never been happy with the concept of a developer, just what Anurag can imagine, I cannot. He is very calculated and very precise as to what he wants and there is a method to achieve anything in life. I am a bit different in this aspect, I want something which may be hard but motivating. Something I am meant to do. I feel this urge within me to do something which is regular at times but why should someone start on regular note. I want something different, satisfying. I want that satisfaction that my friends Anurag, Tapan have on developing an application. Like my friend Rahul who has the satisfaction who feels on study of Medical Science who is a doctor. I want satisfaction for what I do, I am so proud of what my friends do. It requires so much courage to do something like this, I can understand who tried to be in their shoes so many times. I know that my father does not have a big business for me to be inherited but I know that its so unsatisfying to work for something which is just so out of your league. I have always believed that success is a factor of hard work and every human has his own special flair and human is to err. If I could have dedicated my life, I would dedicate it to my writing but that is something I want for my post professional front or retirement for that matter. I want something different as of now. So here I am, Aniruddha, who has woke up but is way out searching everything in life. I am hitting dead ends and so many times come to the same dead end in life as to what I can do after my post graduation is over. I know its difficult to accept that this waiting cycle has to be churned out by me. I even know that my friends would support me for whatever stand I take in my life. I want something, something is missing rather and that’s what I want to discover.