Archive for February 12th, 2010
Change of days!
First of all, this is one of the most beautiful days that I want to store or update in some section of my life, may be years from now, someone related to me might read it and understand what I felt at this point of time.
Its always special for anyone to turn 25 years old. So here I am, celebrating and connoting the way life has changed my days and of course, A Very Happy Birthday to me! Cheers!
Gone have the days, when this day used to fill my heart with joy and excitement, cakes, parties (of that of typical engineering life), dancing to the beat even when I know I am a lousy dancer, all have gone. The people who used to surround me to this day have departed and I’ve been forgotten. This act of life was so special to me that I feel this time has turned into an empty tunnel for me, to walk alone. Their will be days when new people will stand beside me, but I am a person who lives in past a lot. My scrapbook on social community websites where my accounts stand used to flood with messages, my calls were always on hold since the people used tried to be first to wish me. Still, its hard to stand this way.
As of now, I am alone in my room with around 6 calls of people I know and have wished me the very best of this day and I thank them, to my soul. I miss being in love with someone at this point of time, this time, their was this person in my life who used to wait for my calls after every cake has been finished off to base, cakes have been blown, dance have been tried to loose the grounds. People have been on high and then began the final call. For 10 mins may be, I used to talk to her, but it brought peace to my heart. No doubts, I am no more in love with that person but yeah, I miss being in that feeling, its the feeling I miss the most and not person which is to be believed.
Neither am I good with words, neither with the part of expression. Its a phase which I had imagined so hard, celebrated in my thoughts so many times. But certainly my family is beside me, my sisters have been married, I am alone and waiting for just one wish, I should be able to sleep. The thought of being alone scares me and is haunting me. But I will do well. Life is all about celebrating and certainly, I do celebrate the efforts I had put forward from my last birthday are rewarding.
I miss you my friends, family & love that I miss the most.
Happy Birthday to me!
Cheers!
